I still think about you

Now and then I find my mind wandering.

Sitting alone pondering,

What would life be like today if things were the way they used to be

I think bout all the things you taught me.

I wonder do you still think of me?

do you wonder what we could be??

I go back to a time and place where things were the best for us.

Now when I think about everything I just wanna punch things and cuss.

Im sorry if i ever hurt you in anyway.

I think about our daughter everyday.

I wish you could take it all back.

but you cant we have to live life the way it is.

i hope you know that I will and always will love you.

Nobody on this earth knows me better.

thats why i am sitting here writing you this letter.

I wish somedays I could just hear you say my name again.

I just wish we could have started over and let our love begin.

I miss those nights when you would talk to me in my sleep and show me in the morning.

I miss when i was still pregnant you being so excited to be a daddy.

I remember sitting there while you played bioshock and how much i learned.

When you wanted to rap i almost always would let you!!

I miss you calling me snugglepuss and all my silly nicknames...

You are and always will be my cookie monster.

I remember the first time we hung out and walked to your moms house

Sneaking in and out of the window and all those things that we know about.

I was wondering do you miss them too??

I wrote this in December to Jesse My first love and father to my daughter Aria who passed away

important/influences

Who or what has influenced my life the most.

Who do i know would be there when my life is up in smoke.

When i fall I know who to call.

Moms Dads Family Friends.

People who i know will always be there for me till the end.

Ive been through so much in the past year.

And someone has always been there when i need to cry and shed some tears.

My moms are two different types of people.

But they are both there for me and treat me as one of their equals.

My dad has been there for me at my worst of worst. 

even though we fight and get mad and we both start to curse.

my stepdad is always there when i need someone to talk to other than those who are here.

I got brother and sisters Galore

Everyone knows whats going down when we all walk into the store.

My extended family are there always and i know all their numbers by heart

all have been in my life from the very start!

I got a lot of friends but not all of them are there for me 

but thats ok because one day they will see.

I lost my daughter and now she is in the sky with the angels may she rest in peace